Lately, a friend was feeling helpless. Helpless because she was seeing a loved one suffering, emotionally, mentally, yet despite all her efforts she was unable to break him open to look at the light in his life. Despite her efforts, some direct and some indirect, it all went in vain, she could not move him [...]
Wouldn’t it be escapism? He asks me gently, as we discuss a few things together! Wouldn’t I be escaping, if I do not understand my current obligations and what people expect of me to fulfil, and try to follow what I like? For example, listen to something, or read, or work at some place which [...]
She had a difficult time in her last workplace. Something had happened and she got entangled in various sorts of office troubles. It was a difficult phase. She left the job after sometime when she realised that it was enough and the situation was not changing. She thought of finding another job. And within no [...]
She said, ignorance is not bliss. You must get your scans and other follow ups done continuously. Ignorance is not bliss. She is right after all. I was ignorant of my true nature, I was not in bliss. I wandered around the world. In ignorance of the light I searched for it, I tried hard [...]
She sat with salt and turmeric in her hands. As the mix was massaged on, something started to hurt. The hurt did not exist earlier. Only after the salt mix touched that area, a sweet pain began. She felt the salt mix touch deeply as if the roots; it was paining, pained for another while [...]
Once, there was a little boy. He lived in a forest with his mother. His mother was his source of existence, he got to know the world safely and securely because she was there. He would play through the day, and come back into mummy's lap. He felt home. After he was reenergized he would [...]
An infant is playing around, exploring the world of manifested things around him. In exploring through his senses, he gets his leg stuck in a trap. He tries to see whether he can move out on his own. He tries and tries. Nothing happens. He cannot do this on his own. He looks around, he [...]
I have done this is the past. But I am thrusted to do this again. To communicate to all of us women especially the ones newly wedded and even the ones who have been into a married life for some time and find themselves suffocated in their Dramatised roles. Past week I had the good [...]
There was a lady, who was always on the move, taking care of stuff that can be seen. Life was busy, time just went by. One day, she broke her arm. Now she had to be home, for the bed rest needed. As she spent her time at home, she saw stuff, dirty stuff that [...]
I was sitting in the lawns and making notes, with my headphones playing Kabir Bhajans. Just then someone stopped! It was a familiar face, but we had not talked ever. Exchanged glances, said implicit Hello to each other, but never actually talked. She stopped and told me that she had gone through my article in [...]
As Soni came out of the bathroom, freshly bathed, she realised it was time for lunch and scurried towards the kitchen. Her husband was there, switching on the gas for the tawaa to get hot for the paranthas to be made for them and kids. Mom Dad had already eaten. He declared, I am going to [...]
As I sit in our room at night, it is dark inside, the kids are asleep and I look at the night sky through the glass door. I see twinkling lights moving, it is a plane. I am compelled to see Grace in action, it is as if I see Grace carrying the Plane in [...]
Kabhi kabhi kaanch ki bottle tootne se, Ghar ke aise Kono ki safai ho jaati hai, Jo Hain bhi ke nahi, ye bhi pata nahi chaltaa.
What is the difference between my emotional states before being diagnosed with Cancer, and now that I enjoy a healthy life? The difference is of Emotional Residues. Yes. You know it well, we all know these residues well. Before I was diagnosed, any event like a conversation which is too full of appreciation, or a [...]
यूँ ठुकराया ना होता दुलत्ती मार कर तुमने मुझे, अर्ज़ किया है, कि यूँ ठुकराया ना होता दुलत्ती मार कर तुमने मुझे, तो कैसे लड़खड़ाती और संभलती मैं? कैसे पाती अपना निजी संतुलन? जिसे कभी शायद जान ही ना पाती! तो तुम्हारी दुलत्ती ने जो की ये मनमानी, बहनजी की बड़ी मेहरबानी! तुमने मुझे बेसहारा [...]
I was diagnosed in 2014 and around 2017 is when something propelled me to share myself with more people, more seekers, wanting to make sense of their challenges, their diseases. Since then, I have met with people, mostly one to one, and also shared learnings and experiences in groups with other seekers sharing their journeys [...]
I recently had an experience, something of sorts that I cannot recall since many years now. I went to an event with a person I did not know much, an acquaintance. And something happened with our meeting. Then she dropped me off her car for her way back home after the event. Thanks for Cancer, [...]
I shared with a friend of something where I crossed my thresholds, a recent happening in my life. She responded back, 'You have become a celebrity!' I responded, 'Well, aren't we all celebrities? Aren't you one?' And then something transpired from this conversation, especially from her response! I can understand where she is coming from, [...]
I was writing something. Usually when I write on the computer, I am connected to the internet and the spelling expert tells me with a red underline that the spelling is incorrect. This time, I was off the internet. And I was typing and typing, and there were no red underlines, as the grammar expert [...]
I love telling stories to children. Telling stories to them has been an eye opening adventure for me. For the kinds of stories and the hidden meanings in them intrigue me. I love modulating my voice as per the narrative and often times we end up role playing, which is so much fun and catharsis. [...]
Most part of our lives, we live in a lack. As if something is amiss, something wants completion, something must be more, more money, more power, more connections, more sex, more houses. Nothing suffices. For that lack is nothing, but a creation of the mind, and virtual. But for us, it is real. We live [...]
Do you think you can direct your mind? Do you think you have the power to visualise? Do you really wish to help the present scenario that seems quite saddening? If Yes? Go on. --------------- An Appeal for transmuting our thoughts. An Appeal for visualising a future you want, than to succumb to the ongoing [...]
All of us want to be anchored. All of us want to be rooted. We misplace our anchoring on people we love, places, offices, phases, children, parents, money, sex, ego, whatever. But the fact is, that we all seek an anchor. Why? Why must I seek an anchor? That too our entire lives? It has [...]
In the year 2009, I decided to come back to India after finishing my PhD in Zurich. It had been only a little less than 4 years of me there. That was not really much. And I could have spent some more time there too. But something was amiss. I could not stay more. I [...]
She was waking up. All these years, she had allowed herself to be violated, to be tress-passed. Not only once, but over and over again. And now, something in her was telling her that it was enough. She could not tolerate it any more. It is not an easy path ahead. For she will first [...]
About 11 years ago, I went with a couple of good friends, to the Vatican. We used to study in Zurich then. We wanted to see the museum. There was one entry gate then, and one exit gate. As we were entering the museum, we saw a lady, probably a British lady, in her mid [...]
I don't remember my age, but I was conscious enough, may be 10 or 12 I guess. We used to live in Jaipur. And we were on ground floor, in a rented house. The Landlords lived on the floor above. It was just a two story house, as they used to be in those times. [...]
It's Valentine's day. I thought of sitting over this Love thing. And the most important of it all, Self-Love. I sat and sat with Self Love and really felt it within. What is Self Love like? Sharing a few images, a few words that were shown in the silences. Self Love is not for the [...]
चलती चाकी देखकर, सो दिया कबीरा रोय। दो पाटन के बीच में, साबुत बचा न कोय।। चाकी चाकी सब कहे, और किली कहे न कोय। जो कीली से लाग रहे, बाको बाल ना बाका होए ।। ________ चलती चाकी देखकर, सो दिया कबीरा रोय। दो पाटन के बीच में, साबुत बचा न कोय।। Kabir, [...]
I have been shown, through subtle cues, that there is such a thing called Inner Sanctum. It is there, in its subtlety. It is very powerful, yet highly vulnerable. I have been shown, that the only Sin one can do, is to violate this Inner sanctity. Let oneself, and the others a free trespasser's Visa [...]
Today I am reminded of my cousin sister. Who left her body a few years ago. She had a chronic illness, and she suffered a lot through out her life due to her pain. I cannot even imagine to delve how difficult it was for her and the caregivers. I just know that it was [...]
What if! What if I tell you that I keep on sending you keys. You will ask, keys to what? I say, the key to your light. You would even say, "My light? Do I have a light? What is light anyway?" And I will say, "Name it any which way. It would not matter [...]
She sat in her stance And she closed her eyes In front of her, she saw, canyons of emotions, stories, thoughts All in front of her. And she realised.. They were all out there. They were not 'her'. It was a moment of liberation for her. In the next moments to come, she can either [...]
अभी कुछ ही समय पहले तुम बाहर गए थे, काम से, तो बिलकुल दिल नहीं किया कि तुम्हें फ़ोन कर के पूछूँ “और, कैसे हो? खाना खाया? सोये ठीक से? पानी पिया? मौसम कैसा है?” इत्यादि सोचा, कि इतने समय बाद कहीं अकेले गए हो, तुम्हें अकेलेपन का लुत्फ़ उठाने दूँ, और तुम्हारे अकेलेपन के [...]
He was getting ready for his work, and she was having her cup of tea. As they got a few moments together, all alone, she shared her last night's revelation to him. She: I had a revelation yesternight! That the kind of peace one feels after making love, the deep relaxation and ease and contentment, [...]
Today while working on something, it occurred to me that What if the expression of emotions is a healing mechanism of the body. Imagine that the body is like a sponge and when it absorbs certain stuff for some duration, it really gets heavy and then in order to express itself out, it releases certain [...]
She had a busy day since morning. She usually made her breakfast herself, but she was tempted to ask him for a sandwich, as he was making himself one too. She chanced to peep in while he was in the kitchen! he was enjoying making it. Wondering what to put inside the sandwich, and then [...]
Time to wonder? Time to spare? Upon wondering on the root cause of insensitivity, apathy, a sense of being isolated, though in the middle of a crowd. And it came as an image to me: Imagine that each one of us is a world in himself. A world full of ideas of what should be, [...]
"He likes his meals set in a particular way. He is very very particular about it. like an obsession. And I am always on a high alert, stressed, scared, to make sure his meals are properly laid. Even if a spoon is not in a proper position it bothers him and then he would talk [...]
In Conversation with a lady, who has suffocated herself in a role for decades. She now sees her suffering and wants to see if there is any other way to live than this? She: If I live my life as I wish to, and go out or meet people as I wish to, or [...]
Are you in remission now? A question, very familiar to those who have been through Cancer. I see the origins of the question and I know why people just can't stop asking it. I have now come to terms with it, in my own way. Earlier I used to rather dislike this or similar questions. [...]
There came a thought. A pretty juicy one. You know, how they are, very attractive, alive, juicy, spicy and gossipy. It's almost as if they just want to be thought about and they love to get juiced out and that is why they come. to be juiced out alive. And so, it came. This one, [...]
Today, in my deepest silences, I was shown the End of Jealousy, and the source of it. It did make sense actually. I was shown that the source of all beauty is THAT. Imagine a case, when one is feeling even a mildest tinge of jealousy with someone, just because one thinks that what other [...]
How do I maintain a balance between following my heart and taking care of my worldly duties/ my responsibilities? (This is a question that comes up often in my discussions with people I interact with, and it came up yet again today in a meeting, so I thought it would be worth talking about it.) [...]
Can thoughts, emotions create an illness, or at least be partly responsible for it? Let's dissect ourselves a little. Grossly, we on Earth, are composed of : The body. The food for the body is the fruits/veggies/grains, air, water, regular detoxification of body to keep it fit, regular physical exercise and rest to keep it [...]
Yesterday, I read this on a bookmark - "Real Happiness lies in making others happy". Although there is very subtle Deep Truth in this, but that is not the message transferred to us, when one reads it at first. A Few first impressions that it might give are You can be really happy if people [...]
A friend initiated conversation on Immunotherapy for cancer. He said that when he read about it, it felt very appealing and much better than the other therapies or treatments around for cancer. Indeed, it does sound promising. Targeted Immunotherapy. Where you are making something like a strong army, a vigilant army to take care of [...]
A very pertinent question that keeps on coming up from here or there is this - How do you know that you are free of cancer? Are you completely fine? I understand the psyche behind this question. Even I have asked myself this question many a times. Cancer is infamous for its loyalty. For its [...]
There was a discussion going on and it touched upon the issue, when one says one is not able to do something 'because' of the situation, or the people around, or any other reason! Well, while all of the reasons might seem to be very very relevant and real and impressing, there is one thing [...]
She came into the room, wanting to have a word with him. He was standing in the Balcony. It was night time, and had already started getting quieter. As quieter as it could get in a city. He was looking at the sky, or may be somewhere beyond the sky. She couldn't guess. May be [...]
One of the biggest gifts I have received from Cancer is Grounding! I was shaken up, from my day to day life of - taken for granted comforts of good health, good meals, loved ones around, financial security, etc; by the wake up call, that was Cancer. It showed me that life was uncertain. It [...]
Life was going on, as it goes on. For years and years, it went ahead. Something was simmering. But neglected. Kept on being neglected and sidelined. Until one day, when it became so sore, that it hurt, it hurt so badly, that life could not go on, if it continued to be like this. For [...]
She was in a phase in her life, where all the previous methods and ways of life seemed to fail miserably. Nothing seemed to work. The suffering was just not stopping at all. In a hope that things will get better, she had continued being in a relationship, that was hardly a relationship anymore. She [...]
A friend with whom our meet ups were not happening for a long time, remarked casually - Just a casual remark - "Your new house is not feeling very warm to me!" I invited her, to give it a chance, as I particularly feel that it has a lot of Sunshine and warmth as well, [...]
She had started living her life now. She knew it. She was just living for the sake of her heart, only that. And then, a phone call from a close relative - Oh, I hope you are taking care of your family! It sent her thinking. What was this thing about girls taking care of [...]
My post today is dedicated to a dear dear friend, whose spirit has always inspired me. A few weeks ago, while their family was away on a vacation, their house was looted. Literally looted. It was a deeply disturbing phase for her and her family members, as can be guessed easily. Now, a few weeks [...]
Things were a bit strange, mildly strange, for the past couple of days. Was it owing to this, or that, she couldn't be sure; may be it was a mix of all. Where was all that feeling of love gone? Love thy neighbour- where was it gone? Or was it necessary to be there? Or [...]
She was working in the kitchen, almost done with the cooking and winding up. She looked a bit tense, a bit worried, absorbed in her own thoughts, while some work needed to be done, and she was doing the work nonetheless. I was observing her from a distance. First I thought I must let her [...]
He worked. He spent days, in something he loved. It earned him money. There was respect given to his meetings, holidays, out station works, his work on the laptop and phone. He was not to blame. She worked. She spent days in something she loved. It earned her great contentment, not enough money. Her meetings [...]
She got a message, "we haven't seen each other for the past two weekends. I am missing you a lot. I am catching the flight tomorrow morning for the performance, wish you could have joined as well. But I understand your situation. See you in a few days." Something lit up in her, upon reading [...]
As a parent of two little ones, I have been through the anxious phases when one worries about them catching an infection, getting a seasonal flu, or getting infected with some germ that is infecting someone in the family. However, I have to say, that my slow and steady inner work has helped me and [...]
If one of the roles that you play, is of a daughter in law (d-i-l), read ahead. If you are soon to be, read ahead. If you are neither, read ahead. If you are a d-i-l and feel you are already sorted, still read ahead and add points if you think they are relevant. I [...]
We need a crack in the shell, we are hiding ourselves in That's how the light will enter our being That's how we will get carressed by the air around us That's how our wings will see the light of the Sun That's how we will spread wings and be a butterfly After all, For [...]
नारी वो निकली घर से बाहर, अपने लिए, तो सुना उसने कुछ, “ये कैसे कर सकती हो तुम”, “घर पर ही रहो” “घर कौन देखेगा” “शर्म नहीं है क्या” “दिमाग तो ठिकाने है ना” पर जैसे कि ये सब अब उसके लिए वो थे, काला अक्षर भैंस बराबर ! उसके कान पर जूँ [...]
तुमने देखा, मुझे एक सूखे से वृक्ष पर बैठे हुए, कहीं दूर के ख्वाब लेते हुए, मेरे लिए तो वो दो हरे पत्ते ही काफी थे ! मेरे लाल रंग को लाल रखने के लिए, वो हरियाली काफी थी !
कुछ पंक्तियाँ - (विनती- थोड़े से नमक के साथ पढ़ें ) जब पूछती हैं सखियाँ, आज बड़ी फ्रेश लग रही हो, तो कह देती हूँ, कि नहा के आयी हूँ, इसलिए ! और हँस देती हूँ ! कैसे समझाऊँ उन्हें, कि तुम्हारी खुशबू है, जो महका के रखती है ! वैसे पानी की [...]
आज सुबह ज़रा मौसम का मज़ा ले रही थी, ज़रा ओस से नम हुई घास को अपने नंगे पैरों से सहला रही थी, तो यकायक नज़र पड़ी, एक तरफ की ज़मीन पर ! पक्की ज़मीन थी, हम इंसानों ने उस पर पक्केपन का भेष चढ़ा दिया था, और साथ ही दिखा, ये मोटे तने [...]
There was a feeling of being off centred. Yes, she was sure about that. She was sure, something was not right. What did she do, or not do? She began to scan internally? What happened that this disharmony inside manifested itself? She was feeling vicious. She was feeling that she wasn't behaving rightly. She was [...]
She was wondering, what is easier? Sudden death or prolonged suffering before death! None of them appeared easier to her. Both were devastating for the ones who were left behind. What about the person himself? Which of these would be easier? She did not want to answer it. She let it be unanswered. She did [...]
