"He likes his meals set in a particular way. He is very very particular about it. like an obsession. And I am always on a high alert, stressed, scared, to make sure his meals are properly laid. Even if a spoon is not in a proper position it bothers him and then he would talk [...]
In Conversation with a lady, who has suffocated herself in a role for decades. She now sees her suffering and wants to see if there is any other way to live than this? She: If I live my life as I wish to, and go out or meet people as I wish to, or [...]
Are you in remission now? A question, very familiar to those who have been through Cancer. I see the origins of the question and I know why people just can't stop asking it. I have now come to terms with it, in my own way. Earlier I used to rather dislike this or similar questions. [...]
There came a thought. A pretty juicy one. You know, how they are, very attractive, alive, juicy, spicy and gossipy. It's almost as if they just want to be thought about and they love to get juiced out and that is why they come. to be juiced out alive. And so, it came. This one, [...]
Today, in my deepest silences, I was shown the End of Jealousy, and the source of it. It did make sense actually. I was shown that the source of all beauty is THAT. Imagine a case, when one is feeling even a mildest tinge of jealousy with someone, just because one thinks that what other [...]
How do I maintain a balance between following my heart and taking care of my worldly duties/ my responsibilities? (This is a question that comes up often in my discussions with people I interact with, and it came up yet again today in a meeting, so I thought it would be worth talking about it.) [...]
Can thoughts, emotions create an illness, or at least be partly responsible for it? Let's dissect ourselves a little. Grossly, we on Earth, are composed of : The body. The food for the body is the fruits/veggies/grains, air, water, regular detoxification of body to keep it fit, regular physical exercise and rest to keep it [...]
Yesterday, I read this on a bookmark - "Real Happiness lies in making others happy". Although there is very subtle Deep Truth in this, but that is not the message transferred to us, when one reads it at first. A Few first impressions that it might give are You can be really happy if people [...]
A friend initiated conversation on Immunotherapy for cancer. He said that when he read about it, it felt very appealing and much better than the other therapies or treatments around for cancer. Indeed, it does sound promising. Targeted Immunotherapy. Where you are making something like a strong army, a vigilant army to take care of [...]
A very pertinent question that keeps on coming up from here or there is this - How do you know that you are free of cancer? Are you completely fine? I understand the psyche behind this question. Even I have asked myself this question many a times. Cancer is infamous for its loyalty. For its [...]
There was a discussion going on and it touched upon the issue, when one says one is not able to do something 'because' of the situation, or the people around, or any other reason! Well, while all of the reasons might seem to be very very relevant and real and impressing, there is one thing [...]
She came into the room, wanting to have a word with him. He was standing in the Balcony. It was night time, and had already started getting quieter. As quieter as it could get in a city. He was looking at the sky, or may be somewhere beyond the sky. She couldn't guess. May be [...]
One of the biggest gifts I have received from Cancer is Grounding! I was shaken up, from my day to day life of - taken for granted comforts of good health, good meals, loved ones around, financial security, etc; by the wake up call, that was Cancer. It showed me that life was uncertain. It [...]
Life was going on, as it goes on. For years and years, it went ahead. Something was simmering. But neglected. Kept on being neglected and sidelined. Until one day, when it became so sore, that it hurt, it hurt so badly, that life could not go on, if it continued to be like this. For [...]
She was in a phase in her life, where all the previous methods and ways of life seemed to fail miserably. Nothing seemed to work. The suffering was just not stopping at all. In a hope that things will get better, she had continued being in a relationship, that was hardly a relationship anymore. She [...]
A friend with whom our meet ups were not happening for a long time, remarked casually - Just a casual remark - "Your new house is not feeling very warm to me!" I invited her, to give it a chance, as I particularly feel that it has a lot of Sunshine and warmth as well, [...]
She had started living her life now. She knew it. She was just living for the sake of her heart, only that. And then, a phone call from a close relative - Oh, I hope you are taking care of your family! It sent her thinking. What was this thing about girls taking care of [...]
My post today is dedicated to a dear dear friend, whose spirit has always inspired me. A few weeks ago, while their family was away on a vacation, their house was looted. Literally looted. It was a deeply disturbing phase for her and her family members, as can be guessed easily. Now, a few weeks [...]
Things were a bit strange, mildly strange, for the past couple of days. Was it owing to this, or that, she couldn't be sure; may be it was a mix of all. Where was all that feeling of love gone? Love thy neighbour- where was it gone? Or was it necessary to be there? Or [...]
She was working in the kitchen, almost done with the cooking and winding up. She looked a bit tense, a bit worried, absorbed in her own thoughts, while some work needed to be done, and she was doing the work nonetheless. I was observing her from a distance. First I thought I must let her [...]
He worked. He spent days, in something he loved. It earned him money. There was respect given to his meetings, holidays, out station works, his work on the laptop and phone. He was not to blame. She worked. She spent days in something she loved. It earned her great contentment, not enough money. Her meetings [...]
She got a message, "we haven't seen each other for the past two weekends. I am missing you a lot. I am catching the flight tomorrow morning for the performance, wish you could have joined as well. But I understand your situation. See you in a few days." Something lit up in her, upon reading [...]
As a parent of two little ones, I have been through the anxious phases when one worries about them catching an infection, getting a seasonal flu, or getting infected with some germ that is infecting someone in the family. However, I have to say, that my slow and steady inner work has helped me and [...]
If one of the roles that you play, is of a daughter in law (d-i-l), read ahead. If you are soon to be, read ahead. If you are neither, read ahead. If you are a d-i-l and feel you are already sorted, still read ahead and add points if you think they are relevant. I [...]
We need a crack in the shell, we are hiding ourselves in That's how the light will enter our being That's how we will get carressed by the air around us That's how our wings will see the light of the Sun That's how we will spread wings and be a butterfly After all, For [...]
नारी वो निकली घर से बाहर, अपने लिए, तो सुना उसने कुछ, “ये कैसे कर सकती हो तुम”, “घर पर ही रहो” “घर कौन देखेगा” “शर्म नहीं है क्या” “दिमाग तो ठिकाने है ना” पर जैसे कि ये सब अब उसके लिए वो थे, काला अक्षर भैंस बराबर ! उसके कान पर जूँ [...]
तुमने देखा, मुझे एक सूखे से वृक्ष पर बैठे हुए, कहीं दूर के ख्वाब लेते हुए, मेरे लिए तो वो दो हरे पत्ते ही काफी थे ! मेरे लाल रंग को लाल रखने के लिए, वो हरियाली काफी थी !
कुछ पंक्तियाँ - (विनती- थोड़े से नमक के साथ पढ़ें ) जब पूछती हैं सखियाँ, आज बड़ी फ्रेश लग रही हो, तो कह देती हूँ, कि नहा के आयी हूँ, इसलिए ! और हँस देती हूँ ! कैसे समझाऊँ उन्हें, कि तुम्हारी खुशबू है, जो महका के रखती है ! वैसे पानी की [...]
आज सुबह ज़रा मौसम का मज़ा ले रही थी, ज़रा ओस से नम हुई घास को अपने नंगे पैरों से सहला रही थी, तो यकायक नज़र पड़ी, एक तरफ की ज़मीन पर ! पक्की ज़मीन थी, हम इंसानों ने उस पर पक्केपन का भेष चढ़ा दिया था, और साथ ही दिखा, ये मोटे तने [...]
There was a feeling of being off centred. Yes, she was sure about that. She was sure, something was not right. What did she do, or not do? She began to scan internally? What happened that this disharmony inside manifested itself? She was feeling vicious. She was feeling that she wasn't behaving rightly. She was [...]
She was wondering, what is easier? Sudden death or prolonged suffering before death! None of them appeared easier to her. Both were devastating for the ones who were left behind. What about the person himself? Which of these would be easier? She did not want to answer it. She let it be unanswered. She did [...]
The past week was very busy for her. Moving of the house and some other stuff. She had shifted the plants and pots already with the help of the gardener into the balcony of the new house. The weather was changing. It had been raining on and off since the past few days. She knew [...]
Whenever someone falls ill, the people around and the person himself, might feel that something is lacking, something is incomplete, something is not right, that something is being missed. While all these are certainly normal.. There is something we forget. Yes, we all must be healthy and healthy bodies are definitely, manifestations of overall well [...]
ऐ मेरे प्यारे, मैं तेरे लिए क्या माँगू? अगर केवल सुख सुविधा माँगू, तो जानती हूँ की आतंरिक संतुष्टि के लिए तू फिर भी तड़पेगा! तो सोचती हूँ, कि तेरे लिए माँगू उससे नज़दीकी, तेरी खुद से नज़दीकी ! और सोचती हूँ, कि तेरे लिए माँगू, ऐसी चुनौतियाँ, तो तुझे अपने पिंजरे [...]
She had lost her laptop charger. Her own had gotten Kaputt. So, a friend had spared hers which was not being used by her. She was very excited about it. She felt very grateful for the presence of such friends, who have spare, highly expensive laptop chargers, in functional condition. 🙂 Didn't she just love [...]
Friend: Hi Me: Hi there! long time.. How is your new job? F: I quit! Me: Great news!!! So, what are you up to? F: Nothing.. Just finding myself in the middle of the ocean, with no shore in sight! Me: Wow! nice place to be! Seems like you are [...]
kaash, main mummy papa ka mobile hota, ya laptop! In dono mein se kuch bhi hota, to kitna achcha hota ! Poorey din rehta apne maa baba ke kareeb, chhoote mujhe wo apni ungliyon se, kabhi yahan, kabhi wahan, aur kabhi, mujh ko yun hi dekh kar hans padte, jaise hanste hain, jab koi [...]
She called me. Hanging mid air. Searching for the ground to plant her feet upon. I did not help her. She kept on hanging mid air. Struggling a bit. And within no time, she discovered she had wings.. Foldable wings! Now she flies, when she needs ... And stay put, when the call of the [...]
-- - I love my help who comes for the daily cleaning and washing dishes. She is not very regular. She takes an off without informing many a times. She doesn't like to keep a phone either. She is unpredictable. And can be found absent any day without prior information.. But these are the very [...]
What do we do when you hear that a friend, or a relative is not well. Or when you hear that some state is affected by floods or storms? What do we do? What is our immediate reaction? Mostly, we wonder, how did that happen? And try to aggregate more information about the ailing colleague, [...]
A few months ago, Chinmay Anand and me, we went to attend an event, in the Okhla industrial area. On the way back, we wanted to go to back to Gurgaon. There was some issue with the cabs that day, due to rains. So, I was figuring out, standing on the red light, what [...]
There was a recent incidence of Hand Foot and Mouth disease in the group of our younger one, Anand. The parent who discovered through a doctor's visit that her daughter had this issue, informed all of us to be cautious on the common Parents group. After that ensued discussions on the disinfection of that particular [...]
Beep Beep, My phone beeped, for a message. I was next to it, and saw it right then. It was a message from my Dad. Whom, I had the chance to meet just a day before! Message said, "I have come to a conclusion. You are a Brave girl." (I smiled looking at the message. [...]
It was exactly 43 minutes past midnight. She just finished writing her story of the day. And then decided to wind up for the day. Feeling contented. As she was about to straighten her back to lie down, she felt a bit of pressure in the bladder. She must pee right away, or it would [...]
A few days ago, a dear friend and I were talking. She happened to mention that someone called her courageous. She was sharing with me that when she actually thought over it, it was revealed to her that this was not courage, rather....unconditional love, towards herself.. that made her look courageous in somebody's else's eyes. [...]
You think you are not lucky enough? Really! You are able to drink, clean water! You enjoy sips of tea! You can smell, when something is cooking in the kitchen! You are able to bathe your body! You are able to touch and feel the rain! You are able to write, to use your hands [...]
I very fondly remember my time in the Hospital, during my first surgery. One would say, it is ridiculous! How can one enjoy the time in Hospital? How can one enjoy the time when one is sick? While I was in the Hospital, preparing for my surgery, a night before I was to be operated [...]
A group of close knit friends, of which I was too a part, were chatting. The discussion tilted a little to healing of a dear friend's chronic issue and my own. And this sparked a few lines inside me.. Sharing them here. Am I sure, I have healed my Cancer? No. Not at all. Am [...]
They met after a bit long. He was in his sixties, and she, in her thirties. He was about to go out on his bike, to shop. She asked, if she could try his bike, which she hadn't for long. The last time that she remembered when he had a Yamaha bike. What fun it [...]
A few days ago, I went along with a fellow swiss alumnus to be a part of the celebrations on 70 years of swiss and indian friendship, at swiss embassy. Needless to say, we went for the wine and food, alongside catching up with any fellow swiss alumni. After the wonderful dance and music [...]
आज सुबह उठी, तो मन किया ज़रा पेड़ पौधों के पास बैठूँ, उन्हें निहारूँ, तो गयी बालकनी में, वहाँ रखे गमलों और उनमें से निकलती कोंपलों के दर्शन किये एक गमले पर नज़र गयी अटक, उसमें एक छोटी सी कोंपल रही थी मटक बड़ी ख़ुशी हुई उसे हरा भरा, बढ़ते हुए देख [...]
खाली बैठी थी, तो याद आया कि दाँत साफ़ करने हैं मुँह में नीम का दातुन डाल लिया, उसे चबाने पर, कड़वा कड़वा रस मुँह में बहने लगा, पर अच्छा एहसास था, ये पता था कि कड़वाहट से ही तो दाँत साफ़ रहते हैं, कीटाणु नष्ट करती है कड़वाहट, नीम की कड़वाहट ! [...]
मुझे तुम मिले, पर नहीं मिले, तो थक हार के मैंने अपने अंधेरों में झाँका, झाँकती रही, झाँकती रही, तुम्हारी और से जब जब दुःख पाया, अंधेरों को अपने, मैंने, उतना ही अपना साथी पाया, अब तो ऐसी यारी हो गयी है कि तुम से सुख या दुःख की कोई आशा नहीं, [...]
Something in her knew, knew well that this separation from her beloved, was necessary. was extremely necessary it was to tell her, that she would not die, if not for him that the world does not begin and end at him that there was a lot more relationships, a lot more loves, [...]
Nature is bare. Nature is naked. Nature is unapologetic. Nature is, what it is. Nature is expressing it's truth, shamelessly. And that is why, nature is Still. Stillness of the ocean, stillness of a mountain, stillness behind the movement of a river, stillness behind the chirping of a bird, stillness of mud, stillness of a [...]
मेरे प्रिय, मन आज मैं तुमसे वो कहने जा रही हूँ, जो मैं आज तक नहीं कह पायी । हम दोनों का संबंध, सदियों से चला आ रहा है, जन्मों जन्मांतर से । अब दूर से किसी को बताएँ, तो सोच सोच के बड़े अचम्भित और शायद (मूर्ख लोग) प्रसन्न भी हो सकते हैं, [...]
Imagine there is a lady in the house. Suddenly there is a knock on the door. She is not expecting anyone, so is thoughtful, of who might be at the door. She opens the door in apprehension and sees a Devilish appearing visitor. She gets frightened and runs to collect her armaments (belan, jhaado, wiper, [...]
"So, your baby was in your tummy while you started having symptoms?" I am asked. The expression on her face, as if saying "I wonder what effect would it have on your baby?" There are several occasions like that when I am implicitly asked by curious ones of the occurrences that happened in my body [...]
She was a rebellious being. Ready to follow her heart, no matter what people said around her. Enjoying her life. This precious life. Sharing her with the World around. And then, Her father gets a heart attack. Despite being a very open minded individual, he falls pray to the emotional melodrama of "shaadi kar le [...]
Recently I happened to watch an advertisement. An exhausted Husband comes back home. The wife is there, and she sees him apologetically. The facial expression says it all, "Oh, you do so much for us! You must take a bit of a care about your own health too!" And then the husband says, "Don't worry, [...]
I have often wondered, why for most of us, the people in our family, the so called blood relations and the so called close relations, are challenging to deal with. I have often wondered, for most of us, our Real BEST friends, with whom we want to spend time, in whose company we feel accepted [...]
#चिन्मयआनंदकीलोककथायें Anand: Mummy Boy X mujhe keh raha tha ki tera haircut gandaa hai Mummy:(Shocked for a moment. took a breath, to see these things starting at Nursery level, age not even 4yrs, ghor kalyug) Anand, agar Mummy aapko bolegi, ki anand tu gandaa hai to tu kya gandaa ho jayega mummy ke [...]
Chinmay and Anand are talking to each other about who has more of a virtual fantasy item. Chinmay: I have infinity Anand: I have infinity The next day, Chinmay contemplating on infinity, C: Mummy, space bhi infinity hoti hai naa, kyonki wo bhi khatam hi nahi hoti!!!! Mummy: (Awestruck with mouth open, a fly goes [...]
As she tasted a bit of those 2 mangoes, finding out, which was the best, to be given to kids...something moved in her to tell her.. If she as a "human" mother picks the best for the children virtually each time; How then can the Universal Mother choose anything that is not right for [...]
Mum is helping Chinmay find lego pieces for making the Lego Bus. Suddenly .. Chinmay - mummy, bachchon ki to bahut chhoti chhoti legs hoti hain naa, to wo girte bhi hain, to ek dum se uth jaate hain.. unko uthne mein mushkil nahi hoti. Hum jab tall ho jaate hain, to gir [...]
It is not that I felt everything was going great. Things 'were' going bad, physically, emotionally, mentally. But they were 'subtly' bad, 'mildly' bad. They were tolerable. I had started somehow tolerating my life. That was my biggest error. Not to be just NON TOLERANT about giving my power away to anyone! I had stopped [...]
I met a close mentor. Calling her a mentor, because I have always learnt something from her. And she is more experienced, seen more of life, the world, people, than me who is younger in age than her. Usually our meetings are about talking about each others experiences, challenges, new things explored etc.etc. This time, [...]
We were chatting. A friend and I . And she was brave and honest in sharing how depressive and painful it was, now that her son has all grown up to be an adult. He has his own life, his own preferences, his own priorities and She (the Mom) is not a major part [...]
kya tum kal ke liye jeetey, aur kal ke liye hi aaj martey aur tadaptey ho? Wo kal nahi aayega, jhootha hai, makkaar hai, badmaash hai, maine use jaana hai, karogey mujhpe yakeen, mere dost.. Wo nahi aayega, tum martey hi jaaogey, uske intezaar mein, par wo nahi aayega.. jisne aanaa thaa, wo aa gaya, [...]
